Party and BULLSHIT!!!!!!

As I sit here in TGI's eating my Club Sandwich and sipping on my peach tea, my mind ponders a lot of issues I am going through right now. Its hard to explain, but I will give it a shot.
I am feeling so many things right now. Sadness, loneliness, and relief. I am sad because not only do I believe I lost a lover, but also a good friend. I don't know how I did it or why it happened, but it did. Tony was more than just sex, he was a friend. He came to visit me in the hospital when I was there for a couple days. He had called me up to see what I was doing and I told him that I was in USNH. The time was 2130. He got on a train and came to stay with me till I got out. That was the nicest thing anyone has done for me since I have been here. I will miss that.
I am feeling lonely because Tony was who I mostly hung out with in the past couple months. I would go to Gaeta to go to the beach with him and Jody and then we would go to the club and jus have fun. The club and the beach I guess is what got between us. Not the places, just the people we met there.
I am feeling relief. I am relieved that I don't have to go through the jealousy nor the pain that I did with him. I am a jealous person you might say. I can stand a lot of things but its something about him kissing someone else that kind of put me over you might say. He always told me that I was 'boyfriend material' and everything and he even asked me if I wanted to go with him but it comes to find out that he was drunk when he asked me that and I must have been drunk for not realizing it. Its hard to put into words the pain I felt when he told me that. I guess my biggest mistake was falling for him so quick. Maybe it was the way he approached me, or the simple (but POWERFUL) words he said to me. I guess it was when we kissed in front of the coliseum in Rome that made me feel the way I did. I don't know. I have made a lot of mistakes in my life and I guess I will just add this one to my list.
The last time me and Tony went out was this past Thursday (July 1, 2004). He came down from Gaeta to Naples. I went to Aversa to pick him up. Before I did that, I went and bought groceries for my room, namely picking stuff that he liked, cuz I wanted his visit to go well. Well...I guess I was wishing too hard. From the time I picked him up till I dropped him off on Friday afternoon, I got nothing but straight up attitude from him. I don't know if he was having a bad day or what. But anyone that knows me knows that if you get an attitude with me, stand by to stand by. I can take it for a lil while, but not too long, especially if I have been drinking or anything. I thought when I cut my hair (NOTE TAUREAN'S BLOG ON HAIR CUTTING AND PROBLEM SOLVING) that my problems would settle down a little bit, but I guess my problems are all the way down to the roots.
As far as Tony is concerned, I am gonna "Let it Burn!!"
You learn from all of life's lessons, and this is no different. I will learn and live on to see what life has to throw at me next. Well..thats all I have to say for now. Until next time, Ciao!!

Making Third Class PO and a Whole Lot More

I know its been a LOOONG time since I last posted a blog on here but that DOES NOT mean that there hasn't been anything going on. ALOT has been going on in my life since I returned from my vacation in Memphis, TN (which ended on a positive note I might add.) Where should I start? I guess I should start by me getting promoted to Master-At-Arms 3rd Class Petty Officer. I get my 'crow' and with it, more pay and responsibility. I am up for the challenge!!


Next, I got bit my a brown recluse spider in my berthing area (according to the CO at USNH) I spent 2 days at USNH. I was soooo happy to leave. I dont know how people survive in there. I was sooo bored, but I did get better though.



On to a more somber note. On the morning on 12JUN04, there was a car crash that claimed the lives of 3 United States Sailors. I worked with one of them in NSA Naples Security. Her name is MA3 Brittney Smith. She was 20 years old. She was frocked the same day as I was. She had so much potential, but it was taken away in a single moment. 2 others in the car, CS2 Amber Ward and CSSN Darnicia Clay, were critically injured and are now in San Antonio, TX at a burn unit. Lets keep the families of these victims in your prayers. Let me say this, losing a friend is not easy, but losing one of your shipmates is even harder.




Another person who came into my life to brighten it up is Tony Blanton. He is aboard the USS LaSalle in Gaeta, Italy. He is really nice and we usually go to Rome together or just stay in Gaeta to hit the scene there. He's fun to be around. Even though he has made me mad on occasions (Taurean and James knows what I am talking about), he is still a cool person. You will probably here more about him later. We are going to Rome on July 4th weekend. I'll blog about that when I get back!!


I got a new position in the Security Department. I am no longer working in patrol. I am working in Security Admin. I am basically an Office Clerk. I type up memo's and work on evals. The Navy term for it is "Yeoman". I like the job and the hours that come along with it.

Well...I guess I will go ahead and close this blog out since I dont have much more to say. I should put another blog up when I really need to "vent" my feelings or whenever something major happens. Until then, ciao!

Happy Birthday to ME!!!

Well...the day finally came....I am 20 years old today...The day wasn't that special though. In fact, I didnt do anything today. I was suppose to work but they let me off for the day. I went out to eat at TGI Friday's here on base with some friends. I then went to her house and we all watched some movies and then I came on home. Just another normal day for me. Now..another day I am looking forward to is just 1 week away--MARCH 28th!! I will be going on vacation back home in Memphis. Some people dont see it as a big thing..but when you work in a place for a while--you have to get away every now and then. I still dont know what my plans are for when I get there but I am sure I will find something to do. I know I will start at the Recruiter's Office on 12APRIL. Anyways...thats all I have for now so I will close this blog for now. Ciao!

My View on Relationships

Ok...a few people have asked me what my view on relationships are so since Valentines Day is coming up, I thought I would go ahead and do a post on the topic so here it goes....As some of you know I havent been in a relationship since December 2002, I did not have one in 2003 cuz of me going in the Navy. To be honest, I am not ready for another one because I am afraid of getting hurt again. It took me a while to get over the last one so why would I put myself through that pain all over again? I mean I'm not saying I will be single for the rest of my life, im just saying I'm not ready to date again. I am actually happy being single. Some people have to have someone 24/7 but not me. I am happy being with myself. Its also hard for me to get into a relationship here cuz I know I wont be here in Italy forever. When I get back to the States., I might start dating again. But until then, I''m single and loving it!

Holiday Season 2003

I know its been a long time since I have been on here to update my BLOG but a lot has been going on here. First off I'd like to wish you all a belated Merry Christmas and Happy New Year. I had a good holiday season. I went to Fulvio's house and had dinner with his family. The dinner was really good. We ate SOOO much food. I learned something during the holiday season and that was Italians eat a lot of seafood during the holidays. Fulvio's mom and dad gave me a silver braclet for Christmas. For New Years Eve, I went back to Fulvio's house for another delicious dinner. We had seafood again. Again, I ate too much. Anyways...at midnight the fireworks started and to be honest with you all, I thought for a minute I was in the war in Iraq. The reason being, EVERYONE in Italy must have been shooting off fireworks. It was sooo loud. But for my first Christmas and New Years away from home, I had a lot of fun.
Back to the present now...I start back to work tomorrow and I start the night shift again (500pm-500am) I like working nights because its very laid back. On the down side, the night shift goes by sooo slow. But like always....I'll be aight.
I put in my paperwork in to come home on leave. I dont wanna let no one know when I am coming home yet so I'm not going to put any dates up yet. Well...I dont know anything else to put up here. If you want to know anything or have any ideas for this blog put it up on a new "Group" I have created on Yahoo. The address for that is :

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/navymaahallblog

Ciao till next time!